I thought computer science was my world, my passion but I was wrong. I first started Intro to Programming during the Fall of my freshman year of college and I enjoyed it, in the beginning. I really enjoyed python and creating different patterns and shapes and learning how to design to prepare me to create my very own game but things slowly changed. The lessons began to pick up the pace and it felt like I was racing with time, and suddenly I didn’t enjoy it anymore. I was putting all my efforts into assignments just to get the bare minimum grade. I ended up withdrawing from the class because I needed to get a perfect score on the final project to get the bare minimum grade to pass the class and I decided not to risk it. After that incident I was confused, I didn’t know if computer science was my passion anymore so the following semester I completely switched everything. It was all about new beginnings for me and so I only enrolled in classes that had nothing to do with stem besides a first year seminar in psychology. I enjoyed not having to worry about weekly exams and fixing small errors within codes but something was off.
I had no passion. I loved the content but all I did was read and listen. But I needed something hands on, I needed to solve a math problem or do research about something. I would find myself only being fully present in my psychology class and was so excited to begin writing a research paper about overprotective parenting. It felt like I was doing my own investigation and it became my own version of my hands-on activity. It taught me that sometimes you may not know what to do so it is good to explore things even if they don’t sound interesting. It taught me new interests that I never considered before which is why now I will be majoring in science and technology studies which is a mix of both English and computer science.
